We are always told to dig deep for patience, but I think we also need to be patient with ourselves.
We've been terribly hurt through all this, hurt that has spanned over years. It's okay to take the time you need to heal and find strength. To figure things out on your end, to sort out your feelings.
I think - maybe unconsciously - a lot of pressure is placed on the LBS. Pressure to be strong, to be that source of strength for your MLC spouse. Pressure to hold things together, care for the children, protect the family. It can be a lot at times.
We aren't perfect.
You and your H are both feeling your way through this. I don't know if you can permanently mess things up.
You have been that source of strength for your H and family. Now, it's time to be a source of strength for you
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."