[trying very hard]

So W and I had a conversation about her needing to explore her relationship with OM. I told her that it was hard for me to let her go in this way but she should do what she needs to do. She made plans last night to travel to another state to see him for the weekend. I felt my emotions running high so I spent the evening in a hotel to simmer down and to give her space after a fairly spirited discussion. This morning she texted me that she will not go away after all. Could be guilt, could be that my hasty departure made her uncomfortable or perhaps she made an adult decision because we haven't signed our separation agreement yet. Either way, I am relieved that this won't be in the forefront of our Thanksgiving week with her family. However, I am not foolish enough to think that she won't reschedule at her next opportunity. Just trying to remain focused while this EA/PA situation makes it nearly impossible to live under the same roof. Physical separation starts in six weeks. Give me strength!