Oh my, I am sorry I made you cry, Ang. Never my intent.
Yes, it is all still so new to you. You are getting to where you need to be, sweetie.
Listen, all the bad things that happened broke my heart and caused me anger. They did. But I made a conscious effort to remember what was real, to remember my love story. I remembered the man I married, the man I loved. I knew he was gone, lost in a crisis. So, I put my memories safely in a box and stored them safely away. All the bad stuff didnt take away from all the good stuff. All of that was real.
The things you are feeling - the anger, the sadness, the bitternes, are all part of the process. You need to feel them to move forward. But you dont want to hold onto them. That doesnt serve you well. It just weighs you down.
And yes, you have power in all this. You get to decide how you will act, what you want. If today you dont want to decide, then dont.
This is all a process. And you dont want to rush it. You want to go through each step. It is the way to come out of it whole.
