Do you have red hair? just curious...I keep picturing you with red hair, lol.
That is so funny! I do not have red hair…more brown with some reddish natural highlights…but red hair runs in my family….and my S10 has red hair!
You're doing great Ang.
Thanks for the continued encouragement!
uR:
Please try to believe this is not about you as much as it feels like it is.
I’ve been thinking about this over and over since yesterday. This is good advice. I DO feel like it’s about me, and it’s hard not to take it all very personally. But, thank you, uR, for the reminder.
That is wonderful news that you got from the doctor. One huge worry off your shoulders, right?
Definitely some much needed GOOD news! Lol.
You are going to be, and grow and live for you.
This is SO unbelievably hard…but then, some days, I realize that hours have gone by where I didn’t even think of him once. So, I’m getting there…it’s just such a slow process.
And Ang, your memories are real. They are. Hold onto them. Cherish them. Dont let all this take them from you.
This made me cry so much because I do feel like the memories are slipping and getting replaced by all the crap. I feel bitter and resentful and sad…I don’t want to always feel this way about the good memories from the past. I wish I could be more like you in that respect….you seem to have a healthy grasp on holding onto your dear memories while letting the ugly, hateful stuff go. I’m having a hard time with that…I guess it’s all still too fresh. I hear a song or see a photo or think of a memory and it just tears a brand new hole in my heart.
Only you know if you can do this. All you really have to do right now is feel that you may want to quit one day, but, today is not that day. Hang in there, sweetie
This also made me cry because it’s like you knew exactly what I needed to hear. I get so sad and weary…that I lose sight of the fact that I DO have a choice…and I DO have plenty of time. I need to remember often that I do NOT have to make this choice right now…nor should I. I’m definitely not there, yet. Thanks, uR.
Amb:
When it comes to Thanksgiving, you are the one with the choice. If you have been invited to the In-laws and you want to celebrate WITH your children, then go! Do not let him dictate to you what you will and will not do. Act "as if" everything is fine and go! Let him choose to brood, and really think about HIS choice . What holidays will be like without his family and what HE is giving up.
This is true. My H is so up and down. Yesterday evening, he was talking about when “we” go to his family’s all together…so who knows what he’ll be thinking by next week? Thanks, A!
