Moved Back from Overseas to Figure This Out...

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AS and labug,

Thank you for your words. I listen to all of them, even if it takes a while to sink in or I don't fully agree.

Telling her something like I had been thinking to tell her - it seemed like such a good idea, and a way to avoid her making assumptions about why I may seem to be doing "more of the same" in terms of emotional avoidance. I think through it, decide that I won't be impacted negatively if she rejects the idea, wait a few days to see if I still like the idea, etc. Then I roll out the idea here for beta testing...

And then the balloon gets deflated!

I appreciate the counsel, and it helps me to see that the whole thing may not be the good idea I thought it was. I must be blind to some aspects of this process still.

Because I am 180ing and detaching. (Labug, my previous thread has a post where I lay out my goals / 180s).

With GALing, I am taking the kids out weekly for daddy time, just completed my 22nd run to prep for a 10k or half marathon, have lost about 10 pounds and am working in about 30 more, taking dance lessons (part GAL, part 180), reading a lot, etc. etc.

But I seem to see confusion in her, and I fear it is not the, "Hmm, maybe he's not such a bad guy," confusion, but more so the, "Is he already forgetting the things I told him?" kind of confusion.