Well update, to clarify what he's thinking to add to the above. Ok, so I'm not sure what to think of all of this. Has anyone experienced this?
So after the text he called again and said some really hurtful things. Things like he never loved me and we will never get back together. Of course I cry again. God, his voice is just filled with so much hate towards me and it continues on. I'm really not sure where it's coming from. I guess for him to say he did not love me was the most hurtful part. He wants to file for divorce. He keeps referring back to the fight that led to the separation between us. I don't know why he keeps bringing that up, and I've mentioned several times I'm sorry. It's like he wants me to take blame for the entire downfall of our marriage over one fight that I initiated.
I asked that he postpone the divorce simply because of school I had no time to deal with a divorce. And he asks how much? I said Idk a couple of months? Just until the end of the school year and holidays. He said OK I'll file in a year, but until then NC. Ok, first of all I was ok with NC. He was the one who initiated contact the last few times. He's acting like I'm just calling him out of the blue. Secondly, I didn't ask for a year, but whatever...I'm not going to say anything yet until I figure s*it out in my own life.
So this is super confusing. I am super vulnerable and weak right now. I need some strength right now, because if I ever had any off weeks, this would be the jackpot. I am so very cool with being NC, and I was until he contacted me. I was starting to focus on my own life, and starting to find my happy place. It's just when he calls me I feel all this negativity and hate that really pushes me back a few steps. How do you guys focus on yourself when your spouse is pissed off and spewing hateful bile at you?
