Wow JF, thank you for sharing that. That is going to be hard for you, but I have faith in what I've seen here that you can conquer that too. I don't believe you failed as a son, I believe you did the best you could at the time with the tools you were given. The same with your father. I'm sure he loved you very much and he knew that deep in his heart, no matter what passed between you.

My dad's cancer(melanoma) was so quick, he was driving and hiking only a month before he died. He was an amazing man.

Thanks for your hugs and support on this trying day.

Me:49 H:47
S: 16
T:27 M:25
My EA: 2001
His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013
Separated, but H still in house

Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.