How to convince resistant LD wife?

[Ambivalent]

I forgot, no , new to Viagra.

Clitoral orgasm. I had vaginal, and even ejaculation, but clitoral are the best.

Now recently I tried to give myself a clitoral without vibration on. I wanted to see IF I could do it, IF it was possible to have one as if a man was stimulating me.

I did, and it was a great relief. I thought my husband would not be able to do it. This is where I have learned that I have to touch myself while he thrusts. It WILL be possible to celebrate this with him! I was so happy and yet so sad at the same time.

I realized how much I should have been part of the experience. I didn't know, and I also was ashamed of touching myself in his presence.

I wish there was a little book given to brides on their wedding night/day! Who knows maybe I'll write one!

Anyway, I'm dying to share this with H. but don't think now is the time. I'm also dying to TRY it with husband, but I want to have it be the right time.

Right now I'm dealing with my emotions of having a name, and trying to not let it consume me. I have to face it head on, so that I can shove aside the fears that come with it.

Time to go work on me some more!