Sounds like maybe you need to work on self control when it comes to saying things out loud?

If you haven't come up with any goals yet, maybe that can be one?

me: 30 H:30
tgthr:7 m:4
no kids
5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012
long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012
official BD: July 2013
nothing filed
1/1/14 I dropped the rope