I am about halfway through reading Divorce Remedy. I find myself saying "yup that's me" or "wow that's us." A lot.

One goal that I set was for H to start thinking that our M may be salvaged. Small first signs I would see would be him asking me about my day or making any reference to me in his his future.

Last night after we put son to sleep he sat with me and showed ne a funny clip he saw on youtube. Then he started talking about building a bigger tank for our turtle. He said "we could. .." rather than "I could" I may be grasping at straws but I am taking it as a baby step.

I am trying really hard not to skip ahead to chapter on infidelity. I know the changes I am making now will make me a better person- for myself and my kids. I just am having a hard time staying positive about future of M when H is still having A and denying it. My friends and family think I am crazy but I feel like I have to try to make my family whole again

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15