Don't know what to think

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Well, I just got off the phone with H who called to tell me he is going to move forward with the D. Says he doesn't like doing this but needs to do it b/c he can't afford to pay for two places, etc.... Gave me the name of a mediator to contact and see if I was comfortable with her.

I told him I was sorry he felt he needed to go there but I could understand how he may have come to this. But I also mentioned I was sorry we didn't catch this earlier so we could maybe have fixed things. Ok, get ready with the 2x4's - I told him I still feel as though we can work this out but I realize I can't make him feel any different. He said he was sorry - I told him I was sorry too. But I will be alright.

My stomach is still sinking - I haven't cried yet - just feel a bit numb....