Feel like falling down

[willbwell]

I wish I knew the answers. I am so very confused even after a year at this.

standing to me?

standing for being compassionate.
standing for treating h with kindness.
standing for making a good environment with h for the sake of our children.
standing because I think h follows the MLC script.

the alternative. none of which I want

D- even though the process has started

the alternative to my thoughts on standing...
I don't want ugliness or tension with h.
Regardless of how all this turns out. we will be forever connected.d15 requires forever care.

in as far as me moving on... I am trying. Perhaps I am just trying to convince myself of it. I do all the right things-GAL, pray, gratitude, AD, exercise.
I could most def use more therapy!
Me moving on... What would I do if h say were dead. I think what I am doing now. grieve, but also stay focused on my children , my studies. and pray.

I want a partner in life to share with. I like companionship. I want someone to love me back, to put me first.
If D is final, then I will date again. I know I have a lot to offer.

Thank you guys for giving me something to think about. How I wish the answers could be so clear cut!

As great as the heart can know sorrow, so too can it know joy-Helen Keller