wife hardens heart-5

[planet]

Today another heart breaking event.

I found out again from D3 from OM have been spending the night at their room.
Again, I went to talk to XW. Things got a little heated.

I reiterated my stand. She just takes the thing round and round. Going from my fault this D happened, my family's fault, I don't want to pay for the art class, etc.
She's at it again. I remember specifically we have agreed in the past that no man other than the father and some selected relative will be able to clean my Ds private parts. The same reasoning I applied to not having another man with no blood relation sharing the same room as my Ds.

I told her I have apologize for the things I have done and I am not going to apologize again. I tried to get her to focus on the subject on hand. She just avoid answering.

She even said she did nothing wrong. She even dares me to tell everyone. Even the EA. I told her I have kept my mouth shut to protect her. She's gone completely crazy. She just wants to be right all the time and don't even care of the consequences. Now I remember why I just shutdown all the time in the past. She is just unbelievable. Same thing happens all the time during the course of our M. I told her not to blame the failure of our M entirely on me and she have to own some of it.

She even calls her sister telling her I am making trouble again. She just paints me as the bad man. They may as well believe her.

Things got out of hand. I told her we are finished. No point talking about past history so we are not going to go into other things especially my parents.

She doesn't respect my wishes. She's thinks she did me a lot of favour. Frankly speaking I can't compel her to do anything. I told her I will take whole custody when she remarries if she continues this behavior as I have a strong fighting chance to do it legally. She doesn't care.

Why do I even love her still. Kept on hoping for reconciliation. I should be glad as I have escaped this hell. I remember wanting to leave her a couple of times as I can't take this sort of abuse. Why did I believe in one spouse for life?
I know what I did was not validating but this time I just don't care.