Last two days have almost been like old times. W and I spending time together with the boys as a family, getting along, talking and laughing. I am very guarded, though. I felt myself wanting to reach out and touch her in bed this morning. Old me would have done it, gotten frustrated when she didn't want it, anger and old habits would have taken over. I resisted, got up and went on about my business. Getting ready to take S10 to Sunday school and church. It's become our time together.
If W continues to act friendly and reasonable, I have to remind myself to continue to detach and let whatever happens happen. I know mind reading and predicting is useless, but if things continue to be OK, I can't help but think another blow up round of venom and spew will happen eventually. In the meantime, I will enjoy the ride and continue my journey.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
