Bursting with pride and fulfillment today. Trying not to let it overwhelm me in public.
Yea...careful with that one.... ^^^^
Somebody might think that you put your running shorts on backward...and they fit better : )
Oh my heck! I'm in bed lying next to H, who is still asleep, and I totally just snorted reading that! Thanks a lot Mach!
M38,H39 M:16Y BD:8/12 OWDB:11/12 S:11/12-5/13 "Temp" home:6/13 OW dropped:9/13 "I love you":12/13 H ring on:2/14 Depression back:5/15 "I'm done:" 7/15 H moved out: 3/16 H moved back: 12/16 Working on us: 3/17
Just being involved generally. In the lives of my children, in conversation, in activities. I was a tag along standing to the side in most cases a year ago.
Just being happy about being alive and knowing that no single event, person, conversation is going to take away my happiness or dictate my own feelings to me.
That unfriendly, moody, angry person is left behind, because I realize that if I can survive BD and the aftermath, I can make it through just about anything. I think that's the biggest epiphany for me. Life is way too short to not be friendly and happy. I can't imagine getting up with the sour look that I had a year ago.
That old guy is one of the reasons that my M reached the point that it has. I don't like him at all.
Perspective. That is how I keep him away. I talk about "controlling the controllable" in my job all the time. Applying it to my entire life is awesome.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
Total family day today. 5k in the morning. W even allowed someone to take a picture of all 4 of us (hasn't happened in months). Then a football end of season get together for S12. Talked to me friendly and normal all day. She's been happy and upbeat. Stayed off her phone most of the day too. Very unusual.
I had a great day with friends and family. Gotta enjoy a day like today.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
Perspective. That is how I keep him away. I talk about "controlling the controllable" in my job all the time. Applying it to my entire life is awesome. _________________________
I like this ^^
Sounds like a mantra to me, a great one!
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
That unfriendly, moody, angry person is left behind, because I realize that if I can survive BD and the aftermath, I can make it through just about anything. I think that's the biggest epiphany for me. Life is way too short to not be friendly and happy. I can't imagine getting up with the sour look that I had a year ago.
Get the h3ll out of my mirror dude!!!!!
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
That sounds like a year well spent jfun!! Keep it up
M 16 T 20 M 41 H 39 S 19 S 15 Bomb drop April 4; Moved out April 13 D started-full force ----------------------- Dancing through the fire Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Sorry T, seems like so many of us have walked the same path. I told you guys I might surprise you.
Just finished watching a movie with W. (Hangover 2) We laughed and talked through the whole thing. It was almost as if she enjoyed me being there. No weird feeling of cold or edge, just laughter and lighthearted talk. I hope to one day get to where we might can actually start over.
She's still got a long walk ahead of her. At least there has been no venom or spew in a few days. Tuesday night was a big one. I guess she got a lot out of her system that night. W's BFF is having major conflict with H and her S14. My W is her go to when conflict arises. I have been listening as she shares details and frustrations of their sitch over the past couple of days. I know it hurts her when BFF is hurting.
Well, tomorrow brings a new day to live in this world. What else could a man ask for but a chance to be better than he was today?
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
No question I have surprised myself. I have found a lot of perspective. You guys keep helping me find more everyday. I enjoy life better each day and have become a person that I like more.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
Last two days have almost been like old times. W and I spending time together with the boys as a family, getting along, talking and laughing. I am very guarded, though. I felt myself wanting to reach out and touch her in bed this morning. Old me would have done it, gotten frustrated when she didn't want it, anger and old habits would have taken over. I resisted, got up and went on about my business. Getting ready to take S10 to Sunday school and church. It's become our time together.
If W continues to act friendly and reasonable, I have to remind myself to continue to detach and let whatever happens happen. I know mind reading and predicting is useless, but if things continue to be OK, I can't help but think another blow up round of venom and spew will happen eventually. In the meantime, I will enjoy the ride and continue my journey.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
