First, I wanted to say that I think you did very well last night.
Yes, you wanted to say/ask your H things, but you didn't.
You looked good and had a nice time. That's big - and - that is part of moving on with your life.
I know it's tough not to analyze what he says and does. The thing is - he may very well not understand himself - so it's not likely that you will understand his thinking/reasoning either.
Standing looks different for everyone. What do you think it looks like for you?
We can miss our spouses, care for our spouses, love our spouses, consider a possible future with our spouses, all without them knowing.
Live your life for you and your children. If he ever wakes up, he can try to catch up.
I know it's hard to work through stuff, but well worth it. You can do it
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
