Quarter Life Crisis?

[flgurl84]

Happy Sunday All!

My new area of re-evaluation centers around the word succinct. I've only just seen this word in all the marriage saving material. Just looked up the definition:

marked by compact precise expression without wasted words <a succinct description

If you can't tell already, I am long winded. I like to talk. My nickname as a child was (lovingly) by my father, Motor mouth. I have the gift of gab.

Now I want to learn to say want I need to say succinctly which I can't even spell or pronounce lol!

This is going to be a tough one.

I kind of am embarrassed by the length of some of my posts. I read a lot of other people's posts and they are short, to the point and clear.

I guess a part of my problem is I have always excelled in English and a write very well. I enjoy painting a picture for people. Maybe that is what I am trying to do in my posts.

Paint my situation with words and texts, help people understand. I don't think that has helped with Boo though.

What a shame, something I think I am so good at, hinders or even hurts my relationship. Well, add that to the prayer list for church today, help me to express myself, when appropriate, in a clear, succinct manner. Ah there I didn't need spell check for that one!

We are still Replaying here. Back and forth, he is home for 30-an hour at time. Never has meals. Maybe stays at the house 2-3 nights a week. I am feeling used, as he calls and asks me to run errands for him for the business.

But the interactions that we do have are OK. They are good in fact! His calls are more frequent. Sometimes they are just to say something funny, or to talk while he runs errands.

Yesterday, we had a small run in. I wrote out NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME...and that's OK and placed it on the fridge.

This is a reference from Family Guy. Brian (the dog) feels his life is worth nothing. Stewie (the British accented baby) er, well basically sets fire to a liquor store and places a stray dog inside with Brian collar on. (all grim details left out of the show, it is a comedy cartoon of course) A cop comes to the house with Brian's collar and tells the family he is dead. They all huddle around each other crying, and Peter (the family guy) says "Nothing will ever be the same."

I quoted that when we lost Bob in May. An nothing has been. It struck a cord in me.

But they I rememberd all my readings. Nothing will ever be the same, and it CANT be the same! Old life is dead, and we need to be reborn into a new life.

He asked about my note, I told him I was sad when I wrote it. He asked "what about?" REALLY???? I just kind of looked at him blankly and said "my life". He thought something bad had happened while I was out with my friends. I reassure I had a great night out, but coming home to an empty house is sad. He told me I could have called him to come over, the only reason he didn't was because it was "raining" (??) I started to say, no I can't just call you to come over, I am starting to live my life like you are in it anymore. He started to come toward me to hug me, I moved away and he got mad, started mumbling how he will just go back to work. I told him I am not mad, he doesn't need to be angry at me. He said he wasn't, he was angry at himself.

So yea, no major blow out. He bought me a tool kit and tool box, so I can do things around the house without having to fish through his many tool chests.

Well, Off to Sunday Mass. I need some divine intervention!

Have a Blessed Day All!