New to the board, fairly newly LBS from MLC.

[tigerlily78]

I will say, that having her in-house, has taught me the true essence of self-control. That I, and only I, control my actions, feelings.

That right there is a lesson worth the pain.

I appreciate this. I know it is early, maybe I am expecting too much of myself. Later on the evening of my birthday, my phone fell out of my pocket while I was washing dishes and the nub for the antennae broke right off, then I smelled this awful smell and had trouble tracking it down (bad smells are one of those things that H is overly sensitive about, but he wasn't home at the time)... one of my cats decided to take a diarrhea poop on my son's jacket he wore to a farm field trip a few days ago and had left laying on a bench. And in THAT moment staring at cat poop I just felt like ...FTW, who cares. It is all [censored] and it doesn't matter. That gave me a full on 24 hour zen fest.

I really just need to keep working to get in that place and STAY in that place. I KNOW this. Why does it have to be so darn hard to DO it!?