Thanks for the positives I really appreciate it, especially when I know you have the same issues.
You are right I imagine all sorts of things. Need to stop. Even if it is all happening there is nothing I can do about it and it just makes me crazy. Realisitic goals are probably what I need maybe not so much focused on getting the mariage back on track and more on me. At the moment they are all looking for positive signs from him and I am not really seeing them. I think he rang because he feels guilty that I am here alone. When I say alone I really mean alone, new area, don't speak the language, no social contacts outside work, no family closer than a 20 hour flight..ALONE Have to stop feeling sorry for myself. I am having a great pity party this weekend! I was positive and happy when we talked, said I was going out Sunday, he sounded angry about that too. He also said he wasn't sure if he would come down next weekend. I would like to have something definite otherwise I spend the week waiting and then having nothing organised and nothing to do. But if I ask it is pursuing..... Need to focus on ME ! Agreed Good luck with the new job.. though is this a good time to be changing I ask myself... yet another stress?? What do you think mustardseed.
