Planning 48 hours ahead. I too planned months ahead. Another issue - too controlling.. I guess I am in that dark place at the moment and have to pull myself back. He is cold and distant when we talk and he was the one who called. I don't think I want to talk anymore. I see all these signs that he is making a life without me and it hurts. He went to our favourite winery and I guess by the size of the bill on our bank account bought a case. No big deal except it was on the way to see me and he did not tell me. I could make al sorts of justifications for it but the truth is he is just quietly building a life I am not included in. He redirected his post, then lied and said he didn't. Changed the car registration. Seems like he can't do confrontation.. first I knew of it.We did not ever fight, discussed but there was never a fight with raised voices or emotions.
My goals seem a long way away tonight. I need to make tomorrow a better day. MAybe refine the goals, make them more achievable in the light of my new understandings of my H.
The dog is great company but I am not always sure if I am such great company for him. he was another source of stress apparently. he did not want a dog- even though for 6 weeks he really seemed to like him. His comment when getting a dog was he would not have the time to take it to the vet. I said that was fine that I could do that. No straight out I don't want a dog.
Yes he is someone who does not express his emotions and he is someone who does things for people.. Acts of Service is his Language I would say.
I have an invitation for lunch.. so tomorrow will be better than today..
I admire how you people stay so positive.. and yes I am going to the markets. It will be a weekend when I am not here alone.
