So W stopped by the house today. Seemed generally pleasant. She asked me if I was mad at her for stopping by. I use to think I was somehow giving her this impression, but I know even my body language is not mad. I am very rarely a mad person. I can only guess that she expects me to be mad. I responded that I was not mad. She made some dig suggesting I have been mad in the past. After that exchange, she seemed to settle in, petting the cat, talking about work, etc. Nothing R related. We had lunch. A simple sandwich for myself and a salad for her. After the work related conversation ran its course, we just sat there. I didn't prompt her or try to keep the conversation going. She then decided it was time to leave, but put it off as the cat was interested in playing. When she did leave, it was a simple "bye" and a wave as she drove away. I just feel so empty after these exchanges. Things could go on like this indefinitely except the divorce clock is ticking. I need to come up with something I will do differently to see if she responds differently. As long as this has been going on, her actions are not nearly enough for me.
