Me 13 months on, affair finally confirmed.

[hotwheelsaust]

Cadet, I know my W needs to walk on her own journey and I am letting her do it. Is there something that I have said/written that says otherwise.
A lot of my writings are more questions, rather than complaints now. Sometimes they are also just thoughts.
Or are you simply just advising more about what we both know: that is it is the W's journey and we do have to let them go. Have I just simply misinterpreted your comment?
I know the W is like the mouse now. Just the simple fact that she cannot get all the legal stuff done in a normal time frame, says it all. The sake that she is already wanting to come home, with or without the new OW.
The sake that a comment she made to her friend was: if the family love me they will accept me. Yeah right, family can accept becoming a lesbian, no problems there. But can family accept you have lied to them for over a year, including your own two adult sons. Can family accept that you had an affair while married.
I find it quite ironic that my W had told me over the last 23 years how upset and hurt she was by her father having affairs while still married to her mum (she now has a step dad for the last 30 years). She hated him for doing that to the family. And now the W is doing exactly the same thing.
My emotions are up and down, but not really in a big rollercoaster way. I do get annoyed to what she is doing. I get annoyed at how I was made out to be the bad person in all of this. I get annoyed she lied to everyone about the affair. Even worse I get annoyed when I read the MIL doesn't really care.
But I am not angry or mad. I am accepting my journey and where it takes me.
I am still continuing with my ideals and values that I will not initiate any asset selling and divorce paperwork. I want my W to be held responsible for all of that.
I will continue to hold my head high, and be a better person, be the person who tried to fix his marriage. A person who accepted blame for what he did to the marriage. A person who tried everything possible with what I know to get my marriage back together. It may not have been right, but I tried.
At this stage, I am still for repairing my marriage. Down the track I cannot answer.