I read your through, and couple few times. Eloquent,as always.
But one thing itched the back of my mind, couldn't quite put my finger on it til this morning:
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I’m not okay with sweeping all of this under the rug. I know too much. I don’t want to be in a relationship where there are secrets. There can’t be secrets that involve me, and cheating on me, involves me. There can’t be secrets that he shares with other people that involves me and our marriage. If I know, then I know, and I can stop thinking about it
That ^^^ bothers me, here's why:
It's controlling.
It's conditional.
Hm.
An interesting thing is, while it's controlling, you "give up" control:
"If I know, then I know, and I can stop thinking about it"
So, you do not have the ability to not think about it unless that condition is met? Really?
Hm.
Sounds like programming.
You know I think you're awesome, and it's because I do that I think you can do better than that ^^^^^ .
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
