CC, You are going to have ups and downs until you detach a bit more. Maybe you had just a wee bit expectation w/the interaction you were having w/your h. Now, it's back to zero expectations and no more snooping. If you need answers, sit quietly, they will come when you least expect them.
I hope you feel better soon. Enjoy your evening out.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
