So I haven't posted in a few days here been actually GALing...The new job is okay and there are several positions popping up more suited to my profession. I have the Dept. heads okay to apply where ever whenever. Very good monies involved with this company also since they are Govt contractors.
To the sitch front, nothing happening. W remains quiet as do I. Nothing filed as yet from her so I dont know what to think about that. We can all talk and advise about GALing but we all have to admit there is still emotions going on inside. Yes, I have learned and accepted to detach however, there is still some hurt.
I will be honest that I continue to hope she will initiate contact however, it is not happening. 7 months and her course still appears to be the same, to cut me out of her life completely. I know I might get a 2 x 4 but it still makes no sense how she left without a word and how she continues to stay N/C. I want to believe she has her moments of anguish and that her life cant be so great that she could never look back and feel some hurt or emotion.
I realize there are no real answers coming any time soon if ever. But, her mindset is what I would like to have some insight to. The matter of how in just hours we went from talking and doing for each other to not talking and not seeing each other for the past 7 months is a complete and utter mystery to me. I am not looking forward to Christmas as it's almost in full swing. It's going to be a loooong holiday season this year.
I will continue to try however to hold myself with Class, Honor and Dignity!
