Just being involved generally. In the lives of my children, in conversation, in activities. I was a tag along standing to the side in most cases a year ago.
Just being happy about being alive and knowing that no single event, person, conversation is going to take away my happiness or dictate my own feelings to me.
That unfriendly, moody, angry person is left behind, because I realize that if I can survive BD and the aftermath, I can make it through just about anything. I think that's the biggest epiphany for me. Life is way too short to not be friendly and happy. I can't imagine getting up with the sour look that I had a year ago.
That old guy is one of the reasons that my M reached the point that it has. I don't like him at all.
Perspective. That is how I keep him away. I talk about "controlling the controllable" in my job all the time. Applying it to my entire life is awesome.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
