He's out of town tonight and all D9 keeps asking is when will Daddy be home. We are going to tell her Friday night that he is moving and he will begin moving this weekend. He hopes to stay in his new place Tuesday night. I can handle all he does and says to me but hurting her may make me hate him.
H-44 Me-43 D9 T-13 years M-12 years BD-8/21/13 Sep- 11/19/13 D in process
tbh it's much harder on us when the kids start feeling it. Be there for her as much as you can.....you may find she needs more cuddles, kisses, reassurances. She may have questions, she may not, you'll find your instincts will kick in as well.....trust yourself. Come here to ask questions when needed....many of us have kids and there are some wise people.
I'm sending you lots of positive energy
M 16 T 20 M 41 H 39 S 19 S 15 Bomb drop April 4; Moved out April 13 D started-full force ----------------------- Dancing through the fire Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Ugg! Meeting with attorney went well until the parking lot...I questioned and he responded with anger and frustration. Should have walked away but I didn't. He told me I didn't know how to love. It was not good.
We just told D9 and all she said was 'please don't' in a small voice. I feel sick.
H-44 Me-43 D9 T-13 years M-12 years BD-8/21/13 Sep- 11/19/13 D in process
On a positive note I have a job interview Monday for a higher paying job. I hope to get it as it will help me to GAL and it's one thing H said he didn't think I could do.
H-44 Me-43 D9 T-13 years M-12 years BD-8/21/13 Sep- 11/19/13 D in process
On a positive note I have a job interview Monday for a higher paying job. I hope to get it as it will help me to GAL and it's one thing H said he didn't think I could do.
Thanks, Cadet. This could double my monthly income and make this transition easier.
Journaling:
Been reading the threads here and going to read DB again once H is gone (don't want him to see the book). Got a bit confused whether he was MLC or WAS but thinking back on this weekend I see the confusion in him. He told D9 that even though he wasn't living here that we can still go do things as a family, he can still come help her with homework and eat dinner, and so on. He keeps telling me he can't stand being around me but he wants to do things as a family. Hmmmm. He's been following me around the house and trying to make sure things are ok before he leaves. But he still insists on leaving even though D9 has asked him several times to stay.
While riding to eat Saturday SIL texts to meet up to get money for a fundraiser D9 is selling for and H goes off. Saying it was a set up to guilt him into staying and that SIL was sending him messages asking questions and I put her up to it. That my family was plotting and that they all hated him. After I got him to see that wasn't the case then he calmed down and we had a really good time as a family.
I'm so confused as to his behavior with wanting to go and then making sure he still can come back to spend family time. I thought if he hated me as much as he says he does then he would be content with his time with D9 and leave me out of it. If he wants his family then he should just stay. Gah!
H-44 Me-43 D9 T-13 years M-12 years BD-8/21/13 Sep- 11/19/13 D in process
