Melissag, Thanks for responding and keeping me grounded. I know it is wrong to try and read her mind. These are just thoughts that run through my mind every once in a while.
I have gotten better about not blaming myself completely for the S but the baby issue is squarely on me I believe. We always talked about having kids together it was a dream of ours. We discussed having kids right after we got back from our honeymoon and decided together to wait a year or two. If I would have told her the very next day that I changed my thinking and maybe we should start a family. I am 100 percent positive that she would have said YES!!!
I guess in that respect I took it for granted that the option would always be there when I was ready. I just wish I had told her 3 years ago instead of just dropping hints. How childish and actually selfish of me to think that would work.
So now I am left with her saying "I wish you would have told me your desires back then" or " now it is too late why couldnt you tell me sooner". She knows now that anytime she wants a baby I am there. I think that puts me at a disadvantage even though she has told me as recent as 3 months ago she still desires a baby.
Me 47/W 34 T 16 M 13 No kids BD 6/2013 W asked that I move out 6/2013 I moved back and W is upset with this 12/2013 separate beds not much talking Served D Complaint 5/2014 W moved out 9/27/2014
