MLC at age 32?

[flgurl84]

Hi Lost,
You sound really good! But just a side note, you will have low days too. Some days I am on the top of the world, I am confident and almost "look forward" to moving on to better things, without Boo. Then comes the days when u cry and ask God "why is this happening to me, what did I do wrong in my life to deserve this?"

You will bounce back and forth. Faith and Hope has really helped me. I have faith and hope that no matter what Boo decides, my life will have happiness in it again. Not sure when where how, but life cannot stay this way.

I hope you are taking a good look at yourself in this process. Not to sound harsh.

For me, in the beginning, I was the perfect wife, how could he be doing this to me, I cook clean, love him, want to be intimate, want to help him, live to make him happy....so HE was the one who was wrong and needed to change.

Although I do feel I am a good person and wife, I know that I am part of this marriage too, and thus own 50% of the problems. I now realize I am not perfect, and there are things I want to change, not only to be a better wife, but just be a better person in my other relationships also.

I've come to realize I am a bad listener, I need to practice active listening. I am not a good validator of feelings. I like to control situations and feel my decisions are the only correct ones. I depend to heavily on the approval of others for things that I like. I depend to heavily on people for happiness. I am a martyr. I am a jealous person, and it is hard for me to be happy for others.

All these things I am working on and I continue to find more things I want to change.

When you read on this BB, and people say over and over that you are going on your own journey, they ain't lyin'! We as the LBS, need to grow and change. Its hard, but its rewarding in the end.

Hope you have a great Friday!
God Bless!