So today I was suppose to have lunch with my W. She came to me and wanted to know where I wanted to go and how long we would be. I said it didn't matter where, but why did it matter how long. She replied she wasn't feeling very well, something about a migraine coming on. I'm surprised she didn't just try to back out. I told her we could postpone it for when she feels better. When I asked her if the change in weather or dry air from heating was responsible, she confessed she had not been turning on the heat in her apartment. Needless to say I was a little alarmed because it has been getting near freezing at night. She says she can't afford it. She then said maybe she would bring lunch to the house Saturday and left work early.

This evening she emails me that she is terribly sick to her stomach, vomiting, etc. I empathized, replying that she must feel miserable. I told her to let me know if there is anything I can do. She asked me to cover for her at work if she was still feeling sick tomorrow. I said I would. I told her to get well soon.

Today reminded me of how unhappy I had been in our R. After her health, her work, and her chores, there was very little of her for me. I felt like some chore she would get to if everything else was taken care of. Based on the 5LL, I know quality time is important to me. I know I expressed that to her in one form of another, but she just dismissed it. Even thought that was a great thing about our R that we could be so independent. I didn't feel like I was as important to her as all the other things her life.


Me: 43 W: 44 T: 13 M: 8
BD: 01/26/2013
IC: 03/19/2013
S: 04/10/2013
TC: 08/14/2013
DF: 09/15/2013
DR: WAW LRT