In terms of the counseling, we had communication issues for a while along with lack of intimacy issues. Please don't take this as me using these as excuses...not at all, again, i own my decisions and their consequences. W is also a person who doesn't deal with emotional issues well...this has been a constant as long as I have known her (18 years). She doesn't face issues and likes to sweep them under the carpet. This is not a slam against her at all, so please don't take it like that. I'm just trying to establish why I wish she would continue with her IC. Whether it's me or a future relationship with someone else, IC can help her deal with the issues inside her...and deal with the hurt I have caused her.
I guess I'm not sure how to be transparent...what more can I do? With virtually no contact and no communication, how do I show that?
Honestly, if I were her, I would not want anything to do with me. All she has to go on is the prior 17 years together in terms of what I have to offer. Which is, understandably, not enough to trust me again.
