Ok, third try to post. I was using quick reply so maybe thats the issue.
First, I am overwhelmed by the kindness of your responses. I am overwhelmed period so thats no surprise.
We have been married 8 years, we were both 40 when we married. His first, my second. I have a daughter from previous marriage getting ready for college. Her dad is not in the picture.
I dealt with his repeated infidelity for the first several years of our marriage . I responded by not participating financially. He responded to that by withholding sex for the past year, but continuing to be affectionate and loving. I thought he needed to see a Dr.
I love him. We squandered something beautiful. I have to try and also have to prepare to divorce.
I have reasons other than love to want to stay married right now. Im not ready to leave. A divorce will go to trial and I will lose everything including my job. Scared as hell.
