Im overwhelmed by your kindness. Actually, Im just pretty much overwhelmed.
So details. Weve been married 8 years. Were both approaching 50. I have a daughter from a previous marriage getting ready to start college. Her real Dad isnt in the picture. My husband cheated on me many times during the first four years of our marriage. I responded by not particpating financially in the marriage. I guess - thats his stance. I can admit to becoming depressed and bitter & never really trusting him again. He responded by becoming distant, we havent had sex in a year. I thought he needed to see a doctor.
Doesnt sound worth saving does it? Im not sure myself except that ...Ive become someone Im just not. And at the loss of my marriage I realized it. Like a curtain lifted. Possibly too late for the marriage, but I know not too late for me personally.
I love this guy, faults and all. I can deal with his kind of broken - but I didnt. Still, I want to see if I can save this or at the very least come out a better person.
Im doing the 180 as it is listed here, for the most part sticking to it - and its been good for me to have a process, something to follow.
If it comes to divorce, Im going to need another forum - because it will be an ugly divorce that goes to trial due to our financial and prpfessional circumstances.
