Afraid I have waited too long

[nit84]

Actually tried all the above in that conversation 4 weeks ago and she said would call the police and that she is afraid of me. She has said that she is afraid of me a couple times since the S but when I ask her why she does not answer me. We have had 3 pushing incidents in our past the last one being about 2 years ago. we were both drinking and both doing the pushing honestly not sure who started it but that does not matter it should never of happened in the first place. there is no excuse for it. We both apologized to each other the next day after each incident. No police were ever called, no bruises, hitting or punching were ever involved.

When I ask my family if she ever expressed this concern to them before and they said no. I said what about after the separation they again said no.

IMHO, it seems when things aren't going the way she needs them too or if I stand up for myself and not let her treat me like a doormat is when she says this. She has always invited me into the house when I go over to do whatever. If she feels like I wont leave when she wants me to is when this statement comes up. This hurts me beyond belief and I think she knows it and there no way to defend myself against it.