Guess I belong here now...

[sweetbabyred]

I've been busy with school, work, and church lately. I've had some time to wonder if xh will ever decide to work on things again, but fortunately haven't wasted a lot of time on that.

I've had a few days when I think that maybe I should just move on and try to find someone else, but the last few days my horoscopes have seemed to tell me otherwise. I don't particularly believe in horoscopes, but I've been asking for signs that I need to keep on this path. I've pasted the horoscopes below so I can view them when I need encouragement.

"You are following a particular plan for a very specific reason. You may not yet be getting much by way of a result, but that doesn't mean you are making a mistake. Good things take time. Very good things can sometimes take an awful lot of time. When you are standing on top of a mountain, it is easy to plot a route through the valley ahead. When you are down in those dales, it is hard to remember quite how far you could once see. Yet you are much nearer this week, to your ideal destination than you were before."

"You have every reason to be disappointed that a certain dream has not reached fruition. You have every reason to fear that it will never be fulfilled as you had first envisioned. There are many people who will tell you that you might as well just give up. But that does not mean that you can't get what you want, Libra. That does not mean that you should abandon the goal of achieving something you have wanted for a long time. If you do, then your regrets will be real because you are getting close."

I haven't seen xh in almost a week, although we've texted briefly almost every day. He was disappointed to find out yesterday that he didn't get a job he thought he was perfect for. He seems to get his self esteem from his job and without one he isn't sure who he is.

Although I am concerned about him, I can't fix him. I'm working on myself and trying to finish up this semester. I'm so close to my grad degree that I can almost taste it.

Of course, I'd rather have my family together than a degree, but I can only control what I can. Hopefully I'll soon have a degree and a family again.

And I'm thankful that the holiday season is extremely busy in the marketing world, so I'll be swamped with work for the next 5-6 weeks. Then I need to come up with a plan for me and what I want in 2014.