Aiming for the PMA of a glow worm....

[Not Quitting]

The funny thing is that H was an a$$ last night and the whole thing left me feeling worn out, like "what I'm still doing this for?". I come into work today and a few people have commented that I look like I've lost weight, that I'm "looking hot" - although I wouldn't actually agree with them . I've not done anything different or dressed any differently. It made me realize what I'm doing this for. I'm doing this to make myself a better person for myself and for my son . Whether my H figures out what he walked away from is for him to figure out and whatever he eventually decides I will be just fine, and in fact I will not only survive, I will thrive.

[Pudmuddle]

Looking hot might be a reference to having a glow back in your eyes! Give yourself more credit NQ! People are noticing so there must be more light to your soul. Sometimes that simple change can make a world of difference in people's appearance.

You ARE strong! You WILL survive! Because you are a fabulous person and you know who you are now.

[Not Quitting]

Thanks Pud, sometimes we just need to be reminded.

Last night was one of those nights when I looked at my H and wondered what I actually saw in him and also wondered where the man I fell for and married had actually gone because he certainly wasn't sitting in front of me. Sometimes its like that Stepford Wives movie - he looks and sounds like my H but that's where the resemblance ends.

[Pudmuddle]

Funny NQ, I find myself doing the same thing to my H. Even when we are having a decent convo I just look at him and think who is this guy, where did he go. Or sometimes when we are sitting watching tv, I just look at him and wonder who are you. He certainly isn't someone I would look to now to date. Yes, the Stepford H's, for sure.

[Not Quitting]

And it's definitely a horror film....

[3boymom]

NQ and Pud - I have felt the exact same way lately. I look at my H and think who are you and why am I trying so hard to stand for our M? It feels like a nightmare that you can wake up from.

[SemperFi00]

3b, NQ and Pud - you all sound like you are getting to a great place. Congratulations on the work you have done to get there - someday I am confident you will look back on these times and realize how much you have grown through it.....

Stay strong!

[TryingToDo180]

I sent you a message earlier on FB NQ, but I'll repeat it on here. It sounds like the MLC twins or should that be triplets are back on track or not as the case may be, lol.
I also look at my H and think what did I see in him? Is this the man I actually married? I hope that one day I'll learn to love him again, but for now - pfffft

[hotwheelsaust]

NQ, I agree about the looking hot or showing a more positive glow. In the last week I have had quite a few people say the same to me. I can only thing it is to do with the more upbeat aura of me. I haven't gained any more weight, nor lost since BD. So it's not that I have become more bulkier/muscular, I haven't changed my attitudes around work. So it must be my internal self that has changed and this is showing me as being better.
Or maybe it is just my good looks and charm, when they realise I am getting closer to being single.

[MileHigh]

Remember the Invasion of the Body Snatchers? Check for pods!!!!!
:-D