I am still processing what to do with H. He continues to try and do nice things for me. He has been reaching out more via text. I will admit that it is nice, but honestly, I know that his actions are not based on actually wanting to R but out of his fear of losing control over his two worlds.
Last night he sent me a link to a funny video that he thought I would like. I did not see it until this morning. Instead of being appreciative, it made me sick to my stomach because these are the types of conversations that H has with OW. All I could think about was whether H sent the exact same thing to OW. It is like the roles have been reversed and he is with OW and I am the mistress.
I am really looking forward to my DB Coaching Session tomorrow. I cant wait to hear what she thinks.
