I asked myself if I would do it again knowing all this pain was waiting for me? Then, I thought about those moments of true bliss. Those moment of joy where I knew how blessed we were and how God had brought us together. I think about our kids and the love.
Someone once told us, early in our marriage, how lucky we were because you could just feel the love. I think our house is still this way. YOu can feel the love when you walk in the door.
And, the answer I came up with is YES. A profound "Yes." I wouldn't trade the pain if it meant losing a chance for even brief moments of that kinda love and joy. It was worth it.
I'm sorry my H wasn't the man who could handle that kinda love, but, even if he never finds his way again...it was worth it.
Love to you,
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
