So it's been about month since I thought W was going to file and serve me and still no word. She treats me like a neighbor, which is good I guess, and still seems like she wants to keep tabs on me even though our relationship is basically dead at this point. I tried to hug her a couple weeks ago and she was visibly uncomfortable with that. Oh well.
I've come to a point in this whole journey where I'm excited about stuff going on my life regardless of W or M. Let me list what's been going on:
- Having a great time connecting with my kids. They are so special to me and I am absolutely grateful for all the precious time we spend together half of each week. They're just so so great I can't say it enough. I have 3 Ds and for a father to have a close relationship with them like I do is absolutely golden in my mind. Sure, they've got some things to work on, but so do I.
- I've been putting a lot of extra effort into my career lately and may have an amazing opportunity for myself soon. We'll see how it goes. W caught wind of it through the kids and now asks about it every time we talk. Why does she care?
- Making a lot of new friends: men and women. I know I'm going to be OK if and when the time arises to move onto a new relationship. I still miss my family, but if D eventually gets rolling for real I'll be OK either on my own or with someone new. I'm not afraid of not having W in my life anymore. I don't know the new version of her anyhow, so it doesn't really matter. The old W is gone - at least for now.
- Tapping into some really interesting psychological / spiritual lessons. I met a few women recently who shared some fascinating insights in this regard with me as well. I hope to connect with them more soon to share and learn more. We'll see.
- My new IC is awesome and he's teaching me some new things about myself.
- Basically 100% in control my finances and really digging some new tools I'm using to manage my money.
- I've got my house pretty well cleaned up. Almost done getting the outside ready for winter. I have a bit more to do in this department, but it's coming together.
- I've got stuff planned every night for the rest of the week. Next week I'll learn more about that possible opportunity I mentioned earlier. Really excited about that at the moment. It will be a game changer for me if it works out. Will keep you all posted.
ETC
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
