We were both 40 when we married. We've been married 8 years. I have a now 17 year old daughter. He cheated the first four years, repeatedly. I responded by being financially unhelpful. Resentment has built. He stopped having sex with me a year ago, but continued to otherwise lavish me with love and gifts. I thought he needed to see a doctor.
A few days ago, he told me he was divorcing me. I am frightened at being on my own and can't imagine not having him in my life.
I am unsure if it is fear or love which is motivating me to keep the marriage.
I've ordered DR, and will have it Monday. I'm referring to the 180 and can say it allows me to at least breathe.
I have regret. I have anger. I feel like we could have had something beautiful but that we've both beaten it to death. I don't know....I love him. I think we've both changed, but hung onto resentment. What a waste. I don't want it to end this way.
