I don't know if my X cheated. I found this site pretty early on in my sit. and stopped snooping fairly early. I'm not sure whats worse having a spouse cheat or not. It hurts the same, she just walked away, as if being alone was better than being with me.

I had no one to be mad at other than myself, I could not blame him... I had to look at me and the first few months I was in a pretty bad spot hatin on myself. Sometimes I wonder if it would have been easier, if there was another person and I usually come back to the same conclusion, it all [censored] the same amount just in different ways.

Betrayal has many faces...

You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.