GUILT IS IT A GOOD SIGN?

[Whiterose]

He has never said it directly to me.....other people have told me he has said this. It's funny because when he was talking to my cousin, she needed help with her stereo because she's 18 months post D with her MLC husband, and he offered to call her.....anyway he said that and her response was "It's hard for everyone. It takes a long time to find a new normal and it's hard....very hard" and he knows exactly what she's gone through with her crazy as$ MLC man and his response to her was "I don't really want to talk about his with you as you're W's cousin" she didn't push it.

He, VERY POLITELY, asked me for his resume yesterday (on my computer as I always sent in his applications, wrote the resume, etc) which leads me to think that ONCE AGAIN he's not happy in his job. A job he got Aug 2012 that is was SO EXCITED about. There's always something bigger, better, easier and he may be turning his sites away from me and now making it about work.....me mind reading. No OW (although I think MAYBE MAYBE feelings for a coworker--but, that's only my woman intuition and nothing at all concrete and she is, apparently, engaged)......he has many new friends, don't know me or our life, that have happy divorces and blah, blah, blah, so I think this is where he gets a lot of his "info".

I think he's confused. I've always maintained he loves me. It was a rocky relationship, FOR SURE, but to say madly, deeply, completely would be an understatement. In his silent moments he's hurting badly and he feels guilt and MAYBE remorse (good one Portia) and maybe he's seeing that I'm not all, most, but not all the cause of his problems so now it's work??

OMG I'm so sorry....blabbing all over the place here:)