How many times have you asked for the money? I would ask one more time and then turn it over to the lawyer. If he's like most of them, it's gone/spent and if he has the money, he's not going to give it to you. He might even take some pleasure in your asking for it. Ask once more and then turn it over to your lawyer.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
