Thanks Mach-I've got my head screwed on pretty well this morning. I can honestly tell you that I'm surprised how well I held up in the face of the blitz last night. She went from rage to disbelief to introspection and everything in between for about an hour.
As I reflect this morning, I realize this event was the greatest indicator to me so far that I am coming closer to getting my side of this under control and understanding my place. As I held my son last night and assured him that I loved him and nothing would ever change that, I felt a grand purpose in everything I do. I felt like the only steady thing in the house at that moment.
One of the few things that I said during the rant last night was that I agreed with her assessment that S12 might need some counseling and that we would all benefit from it.
I can't stand W trying to use the kids as pawns to create guilt or entice a reaction from me. I refuse to reciprocate. when I talked with S12 after W left for the store, that conversation was for us. I wont share the contents of that, because its our business. I wont try to hurt her relationship with them either as I know she has done in regards to me.
S12 told me he was afraid I was going to leave because I was upset with mommy. I assured him that there was only 1 place I wanted to be in this world.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
