I am very aware of what I am doing and have thoughts on why. My goal now is to go back to how I was a few weeks ago, to be in this 100% and not let fear run me. I need to face my fears. With that said I have found out what motivates me and it is about the only thing that will… Fear. So another goal is to find out why I seem to need to be compulsive/obsessive about something at all times and to change my motivation from fear to what I want for me.
JP, Is your W aware that you know what you are doing, that you are working on overcoming it and are discussing it in IC? Be sure to keep her in the loop or you are damaging your M while you work on not damaging it.
You can do this. We all know that you can so face it head on, deal with it and move forward as a whole person.
M 46 H 44 D 12 S 8 M 9 T 11 BD 2/15/13 "Makes sense to stay together" 5/12/13 Agree we are 'healing' 7/13 Definitely Piecing 9/13
