jp, I think it is a good starting point for you to realize where your weakness is, own it, and look for ways to overcome it. Your journey may have been a rollercoaster, as mine has been as well, and you have come such a long way. You are at a good point right now. You are working on things, working on your marriage.
I understand the fear thing. I have the same feelings. For me, I have heard so many hurtful things from my husband, like he had been 'playing along' and hadn't loved me for years. So now I am afraid that the same thing will happen again. You are right, it is like taking a leap of faith. And we all know how that dreaded limbo can be, and how difficult it is to have uncertainty.. sometimes we need to just have faith. Faith that things will all work out, one way or another.
Right now it is fear that motivates you perhaps, but perhaps there is something else that can motivate you, to move forward. Keep on living that mantra of UrWorthy's that is on your signature, and keep moving forward, letting go, and making changes.
M: 8 yrs T:14 Twins:7 S:5 BD:'NLILWY': Feb/2013 Mar/Apr/May: MC June: "living in limbo" Sept 12: H moves out Oct 20: reconciling Jan-Feb 2014:MC Feb 2014: separating, and H moved out.
