This is the first time I have suggested this, but a DB coach would not be a bad idea, they are great from what I hear.
Might want to read DR, for me it made more sense.
I am truly at a cross on your dilemma since you filed, I see both sides.
Keep posting, it take a while to get off moderation.
Keep calm, and positive. Work on keeping yourself healthy and busy.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy