Just finished having a good cry with S12. I tried to reassure him that I wasn't going anywhere and that all I wanted in life was to be here with him, his brother and his mother. I told him I was sorry he had had to listen to us fight. I hugged him, we cried. He told me he liked me being around more and was afraid I was going to leave.
He's a smart kid and I love him and his brother more than I love myself or any other being on this planet. I can detach from W and her actions, but the emotions, well being, and stability of my boys will be paramount in my existence.
I haven't cried in months. Holding my 12 year old while he cried broke my heart. Now we are sitting here watching college bball and talking about regular silly stuff.
I am emotionally fried right now.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
