Where am I at?

[Icecoldw]

In one of my failed conversations, or should I say angry outburst, with w I told her that I had to deal with my first w having an a and that I would be damned if I would deal with one this time around. So if there is one, I don't think she would think it would be any use to come back. I know pure speculation on my part. I guess I am not to the point yet to think it's ok for the s to have an a, I know in a lot of cases it part of the process, maybe my expectations are too high