Deciding What to Do.....

[Mimi00]

I pray - but I do wonder if God feels compelled to help me now.

Faith with out works is dead.

For example: I can't pray for a job then sit at home all day, not fill out any applications and expect a job to just fall in to my lap.

Therenis important work that needs to be done inside you that you have to do.
If you want help you have to first help yourself. You have to be worth it to you.

So if you want to feel better, pray, then act on it.

Push your self out of bed and say "today will be a great day" (even if you feel like crap)
What are your hobbies or what activites make you feel good? do those things.
What are some things you've always wanted to do but never had the time?

I had to listen to positive music in my car b/c listening to the radio certain songs would come on that reminded me of H, then I'd spend the next 10 mins thinking about him and what we could have done better...questioning things then crying the next 5 minutes while driving. I had to stop the cycle. So listening to empowering songs or songs of hope helped me to purposefully change my thoughts.

Also reading books on self improvement that have nothing to do with marriage, listening to church sermons on CD etc...and when my mind starts to drift I immediately try to snap out of it and focus on a positive saying, scripture, or idea.

It took a month straight of actively doing those things and my mental attitude is 97.5% better. I haven't broken down crying in a little over a month...I do sometimes get teary eyed when certain things happen....but I will take that over weeping and beating my self up about this and even my dog goes into the other room b/c he doesn't want to be near me; When the dog is embarrassed for you, you know things have to change lol

I hope this week is better for you.